The Impossible

They say, it's impossible not to change when the world constantly changes around us. Well, that doesn't make me feel seen… I bet, it doesn't make you feel seen either.

At times, our life stagnates. Other times, we stagnate. No matter how much we want to move forward, invisible ropes tie us down.
It doesn't feel possible to change.

I felt trapped many times throughout my life, and it wasn't due to my inaction. It seemed like an impenetrable wall surrounded me. 

I remember the times when I desperately wished for something to happen.
And, I can't forget those times when I wished for nothing to happen anymore.
I just didn't want to feel hollow, yet so heavy anymore. 

It's impossible to push the sky away, when it's threatening to fall on you with the weight of a million stars.

We continue our unchanged lives regardless of our efforts to break out. The world is constantly changing. Still, getting unstuck remains incredibly difficult. 

These barriers felt unbreakable for so long, I became even more hopeless.
I gave up pushing the sky away. Then the sky fell on me with the weight of its million stars. And, I sunk into this deep, dark ocean of despair.

And when I found myself in the darkest places of all, I started seeing clearly.  It was then, when I understood that even a subtle shift can make it possible to change what seemed unchangeable before.

Change is not impossible, even if we have to break through brick walls. And even if, we have to find our way back from the bottom of the ocean. In the end we break through the surface so much stronger.

You are not alone and there is always a way forward.

✨Judit